Stuff.... Friends, who are they? Are you changing?

If you met anyone you call a friend for the first time today, would you still say we are friends? Friendships roll like the tide. High times and low times the best stay strong, like a well built pier. Some on the other fade or slowly fall apart. Generally brought on by one or the other changing in some way. My disease has cost me many material things but it has shown me what true friends are and what they do. My father once told me friends to a man cause trouble, stay away be a loner. I did this mainly my entire life. As I grew older, got married my views changed and my relationship with dear old dad bottomed out. However, I started seeing people (both sexes) in friendly terms. When I really bring you into my family and friend become like family  I hold you to a higher standard. For many folks in my inner circle it has worked fine. Some just cannot handle it. Do I love to hard? I love my friends, I love my family, I love with it all. In 9 out of 10 times I will do anything I can to help a friend. The 1 time will be the time my family is in great need. 

Yesterday I lost someone I considered to be a great if not best friend. I guess my standards were to great. My fault? Maybe it was. Perhaps it was a bit of both. He is in deep and over extended. I understand and wanted to help but he did not want it. Fine. I needed something from him, he could not give the time. Even when I and my family thought I was on deaths door he was aloof. Time was ticking on the friendship. It ended, because of this blog. I started this for a few reason. To help others, express my thoughts, and to keep my friends up to date on me and my condition. I got very tired of texting and reciting the same version of me over and over. Now I write it, post the link, and it makes it easier for all.

The friend I lost, I do not think I would befriend him today if we just met. The pier broke. The tide washed away a lot this time. It was a fond time in my life but my life has changed and so has his. It happens and it's cool. It will hurt for a bit and then fade away like a beautiful sunset or a melting snow. The age/generation gap was wide, early 30's and early to mid 20's are 2 different times of life. I look around and that is the only person in my circle that I without a doubt would not approach in a friendship matter. I have changed as a man. People change and grow, I know I have. Have you?